I think since kindergarden or preschool I can't really remember that well it's been a long time.

Hello everyone it's been awhile since I posted anything on here sorry I really been neglecting my journal and I haven't been updating in so long. Anways lately I have been having up and downs coming into my life and lately the way it's been going isn't doing so well. College is okay nothing to say much there because I wouldn't want to bore you with my educaton. Since my recent break up I have'nt been so chipper lately or my normal self well most of you might say "duh it's a break up how else are you gonna feel." I don't really let it dwell on my mind for so long but I do feel confused and sad on why he just choose his ex over me but I won't get into that it's much to explain and it takes awhile for me to get to the point.

Even though we're not together he's still special to me and a part of me forever my feelings are still strong for him which I still love him and I do want him back. But I have to be careful and be patient I know most people would never wait for their exes but since my feelings are strong I will. I don't care what people think because it's my decison and it's how I feel You never know what may happen and I will wait for chance to come if something happened so yes I will wait no matter how long it will take and be a patient kitty. My feelings and my heart will always love him always and forever.

Well again I haven't been posting in a while now busy watching 5ds on the bright side I got to catch up on 5ds and still catch a cold at the same time.Anways today is the Super Bowl which Im not too much of a fan of but still I celebrate it because it's my dad's birthday today. Of course I have to get sick on the Super Bowl most of my friends say I don't come on here that much it's true I don't. I do try to but I don't post anything on here well it's hard to post anything if you haven't been on that long.This cold is really killing I keep coughing unexpectedly and sneezing I just wish I can get better already I had this cold all weekend. I just realized that the 5ds dubbed version is really slow damm 4kids they only stopped at crash town. But they actually made sherry have a french accent which is cute and she does sound better that way I wouldn't have imagine they wouldn't make her sound that way.

I have always hated the short little guy on Team New World which annoys me so much not that anyone would care anyway.It's just my opinion plus Im not offending anyone. They shouldn've at least a fouth season of 5ds it would be epic and plus complete the whole thing guess not what a shame. I hated the fact that the movie won't play in a place where I live why so far damm you japanese people. I'm not a huge 5ds fan but they should've done alot better with the whole story plot. Back to the subject well Im kinda sick now to write anymore but I hope you all enjoy the Super Bowl and never catch a cold okay bye peeps.

Have you ever wonder why some people who are meant for each other are easily torn apart. Oh well things happen for a reason I had my heart torn into two last night when my ex-boyfriend's parents wanted him to stop talking to me for no reason and that includes text and calling. Weird huh I was torn and my heart ache wondering why in the world they would do this but it got a little better when he suggested to talk on Myspace still it wasn't the same and it was better than nothing. But the pain didn't end there I told him I loved him and always will and he started to tell me that he had a girlfriend already I was hurt inside and crying my eyes out when this happen and all he could say is sorry.To me sorry doesn't fix anything especially when he broke our promises and my trust I really don't know if I could talk to him on Myspace since our break up but it's up to him to talk to me. I guess being friends seems like a good idea for now until I can figure out what to do for the moment.

Now for the opportunities After I was done crying and trying to fix my broken heart I began to do some thinking getting into dating again. I probably won't but we'll see what the future holds for me. I don't think of sex too much because it's not necessary and it can wait. I really don't think sex is important right now. Well I started to contact my best friend whom I knew for 3 years and I haven't really talked to him for a year so I felt bad for ignoring him so long so I thought I call him and surprise him he was shocked that I called but it was good I was able to talk to him again he was always there when I needed him he's a good friend. But I have to admit I did grow some feelings for him over the years but I wasn't able to tell him reason being is that I was in a relationship with someone before. He told me that he had feelings for me but he couldn't tell me because of my relationship. I was happy when he told me when he was moving here we would to get to see each other more often which was great .Since most of my friends don't usually go and visit me. But since he told me that he was gonna ask me to be his girlfriend I was having second thoughts I just had a break up so I really I'm not ready for another relationship.

We all heard played the classic fighting games like : Street Fighter, Tekken, Marvel V.S Capcom, and Mortal Kombat . With the tecnologoy they have today they actually remade the classics better than they were before. I loved playing Street Fighter when I was little even though I sucked I still had fun playing it with my cousins. Another classic fighting game I love is Mortal Kombat the movie was okay but the game is the best. So I read in my brother's game magazine that they were gonna make a remake of mortal kombat called Mortal Kombat 9 and they added a new character to the orginal cast that most people love Kratos from God of War is going to be a playable character it's just like Soul Caliber. Anyways besides talking about Mortal Kombat 9  I've watched the Laker Game they had a awsome game and Oklahoma played a good game final score was 94-101 not a bad game. Oh  and Happy Martin Luther King Day Remember his Legacy.

Don't worry guys I'm still here to post I just haven't been doing that lately because I been bored and the meme thing kept me entertained for a while. My dad been wanting me to read the driving rule book to keep me busy other than posting on here it surprises me that they want me out that badly I'm just kidding. Anyways onto my day Well it started off checking for messages and email then posting another meme  and after that  I watched tv and read a little bit of the driving book. Went upstairs and took a shower and texted my boyfriend and congratulated him on his birthday and did a awsome video chat on tokbox a free video chat website with no costs and no download Yay!! I would've use skype but too expensive.

My day went by pretty fast and  fun now I wanna play God of War now even if its bloody and gorey plus the sex and the foul language which makes it the greatest game ever I love greek myths!! oops nerd alert there.xrainbow_wings I missed you too sorry for not posting alot and great love to the trudge and bruno plus T man lover. bluebunnybubble I made a special scenario for the roleplay meme can't wait to see what Mr.T got!! Yeah!! sorry too much pepsi Warning: Never drink too much soda gives you a heartburn those hurt like hell worst experience ever. Well I'm sore so I'll see my peeps later and the people who think I'm a bitch fuck off  and leave me alone I'm so tired of people judging me. I'll give you some advice get to know me first and then make your damm opinion if you like yay!! and if not I won't care. Goodnight.

How my life went upside down and up like a rollcoaster year after year
yea I know complicated title for a book but it's true and how my life reflects on my emotions and years I don't look old but I'm getting there slowly even though my life is complicated to understand I still think it would be a great book to read about for my spare time.

I think anyone who wants to write a book about themselves would be a interesting story to read and we might actually get to know the author better than we think. It's better than judging a person you don't know anyone can get upset for anyone that points at them for a rumor or a misunderstanding concept. Oh well people can be cruelest animals in the animal kingdom today.